ItS nEvEr alWays AbouT mySelF

WhOops!

2005-07-19T12:05:00.000-08:00

HELLO THERE!~ Sorry people, i noe its been DAMN long since i last wrote anything here... hehe.. forgive me pls.. Hehe.. wow.. its been months! Yeah.. Actually hor, i wrote a damn long entry last week.. but then hor, when i clicked on publish post, then my internet connection suddenly lost! Then everything was lost lor... damn sianz u noe.. and i was going out already.. so never bothered to rewrite it lor.. dun have the actual feeling and mood already ma... yah.. but today okie la, TRY to write to the best of my ability..

These 2 months, many things have happened.. commandos dying out of nowhere, me going to thailand and back, my R n R in bangkok, NKF outrage, chalets, my secondary sch classmate already becoming a mother of 2 (yes u heard that right), and something else.. hehe.. dun worry, u'll noe.

Well well.. recently u've heard of SAF soldiers dying in accidents.. yeah.. hit us pretty hard too.. first was a trainee regular who was doing maritime warfare training at Changi Base.. drowned all of a sudden.. (but this din get much publicity from the press, luckily) and most recently, the 2 soldiers who've died from heli-rappelling incident..
The 2nd incident hit me hard.. really.. why? Becoz exactly one week before the accident took place.. I was doing the EXACT same thing - same training, night heli-rappelling, and same place too.. luckily nothing happened to us.. ours went pretty smooth.. yeah.. Thank god for that.. but this hit my bunk mate very hard.. it's a personal friend of his and they've always hang out together.. yeah.. that night i saw him panick.. not a very nice sight in camp..

I wont talk about my thailand training.. hehe.. its classified, but all i noe is we all enjoyed the training VERY MUCH! WoO~! and also, the R n R in bangkok is FANTASTIC! wAhaha.. did quite a lot of shopping.. made alot of calls and SMSes to PINK and in the end got a HUUUUGGGGGEEEEE Bill of over $600.. haha.. madness.. but i'm willing to.. lala.. but till now i haven finish paying.. lol.. joke.. M1's been chasing me on it.. and have been very kind.. and patient!so not bad~ Thank you M1!

Okie.. my sec sch friend! Haha.. Told to me by another friend of mine and when i heard it, i was pretty stunned! Lol.. came very much as a shocker to me.. but I'm very happy for her.. Den it led me to think about marriages.. and that I'm not young already.. Firstly, this sec sch friend of mine.. married last year.. having 1 baby now, and another one coming soon, she's 21.. another friend from JI, married when i was in year 2.. thats when i was 18.. she's 22 this year.. both having wonderful, caring and loving husbands.. wooo so envious.. oh yah.. my camp mate.. married last year.. happily enjoying his married status, he's 20 this year.. wife same age.. studying in first year NUS now if i'm not wrong.. and he's going to uni after NS too.. wOo! Damn bloody envious man.. haha oh well.. if only i have this life.. *hinT HinT* haha.. Oh yah.. my sec sch friend w asn't prepared for it! and yet she went on for another one.. wow.. show's how much love that went with it.. so proud of them.. fortunately, both are working already.. and i'm sure they will work even harder.. You have my blessings! And do invite me to your upcoming baby's first month OK?!

WOot.. oh yah.. not many people believe in early relationships.. (including marriages)
well.. i used to be skeptical too.. in my younger days.. but that, since, has changed alot.. Now, i believe in it, and i noe it can work, having seen live examples of my own friends around me.. haha.. sometimes, believe in something, it'll work for you.. some call it devotion, some call it infatuation.. what is it to you? Smile.. Go for it. And never say you've tried until u've really tried all possible options! WHee!!

Haha.. oh yah.. thats all for today i suppose.. will keep updating! And.. what happen to all the TAGGERS?!!!! hAr?

PiNk PS:
*hAppy anniversAy!! Hope you like the flowers.. hEHe.. remember to get a vase! mUAckz*

Wah Liaoz!

2005-05-15T14:00:00.000-08:00

EllO people.. been dunno how many days since i last blogged.. haha.. weeks ah. Hmmm.. nothing much to report also lehz.. oh.. going overseas again. Haha.. yeah u heard it right.. again! This time going to neighbouring Thailand wor.. and shorter period also.. 12 days from May 18 to 30 i think.. So sianz..

Best Combat Unit!
Think we've done it again! Haha.. commandos winning best combat unit competition for work year 04/05. And my company being the SAF's best operational company! Lol.. so proud.. and that also means we get to march in this year's National Day Parade!! So shiok.. BUT!! I'm not marching....... Haiz.. know why? Coz i din make the cut in terms of height... just only lor.. wat the hell! So.. LL become reserve lor.. argh.. so sianz. Very sianz lehz.. when u see the others in the parade square practicing their drills for NDP, i was up in my bunk, looking out of the window, watching them as they practice the drills, one by one.. and I can only stand at the window.. looking. Wa liaoz.. i complain to my superiors and officers lor.. but they cant do anything la.. unless those people unable to make it on the NDP days.. den maybe i get the chance to march lor.. hAiz.. sianz. Nonetheless, i have requested to be an NDP coordinator which still gives me the chance to wear my No.1 uniform.. Haha.. but dunno la.. see how things go lor..

30 hour guard duty!
Cannot stand it.. i started my duty early in the morning at 2am lor.. and only ended the next day at 8 plus in the morning.. kaoz.. so tiring man.. somemore i guard commander so means i not supposed to slp wor.. but cannot make it la.. at 2 - 3am the next day hor.. i almost dead already.. my guard 2ic already cannot tahan already lor, even though he started his duty at 6am.. 4 hours after mine.. well.. i let him slp lor.. but den i have to stay awake la.. coz if not, den no one to take charge le.. so 4am i woke him up la.. luckily got ppl accompany me indirectly wor.. smsing me while i was on duty.. keeping me alive.. haha.. if not, i think i also died long ago.. den time seems to pass ever so slowly lor! I look at the wall clock.. and after wat seemed like hours, i look at it again.. den i was damn shocked lor.. only 5 mins have passed!! Then i told myself.. die liaoz.. cannot make it.. this go on very long very long.. until finally.. i saw daylight coming thru the windows into the room.. SHUANG! You'll never understand the feeling till u are there man.. Lol.. den all seemed to go faster le.. the next batch of guards took over and the next guard commander came.. to my relief.. lol.. finish up my alot of admin, close all the books, handover all the stuff and brief the next commander.. den suddenly 8am liaoz.. haha.. my guards all fall out le.. me and guard 2ic stayed to settle the admin.. den finally at 8.30am.. its over! went back to bunk.. bathe, pack and left for home sweet home.. and i slept like some dead man on the taxi on my way back home.. wahaha..

Almost died in my slp i suppose.. lol~

Fairytale

2005-04-24T19:36:00.000-08:00

Haha.. song lovers definitely start thinking of a song titled "Tong Hua" by Guang Liang. In this song's lyrics, it talked about.. a fairytale.. haha.. okie punch me.
Well, buy his album or see the lyrics at www.boxup.com/gb/music/singeralbum/1/singeralbum655_1.htm

A fairytale doesn't always refer to relationships, lovey dovey stuff or stuff like that. It can be anything.. juz like a dream. It can range anything from relationships to careers and so on. Fairytales may sound childish, but most, if not all, of people, are living thru their own fairytale story, consciously or unconsciously. I am.

Fairytales need to be believed in, so that it can be real.
Fairytales need to be pursued, so that it can come true.
Few get there.. coz they dun realise that the fairytale they live in, had been in fact, created by themselves. We created our own fairytales and its up to us to believe it, and pursue it. Believing in one is just like believing in yourself.. you write the script from beginning and you choose ur own ending.

There are no failure in fairytales, but just those who have chosen to tear the script apart, by giving up.
I tore mine once, a few years ago.. but i decided to write it again.. this time was harder than i thought..
Nonetheless, this fairytale is written by me. I wanna live thru the whole thing, right to the ending and beyond.

PS.

A fairytale is just a fairytale. Until its real.. its just.. another fairytale.

Write it, live it, realise it and relive it!

yOoOhOoo~~

2005-04-03T23:02:00.000-08:00

wAHaha... Guys ANd bAbes! I am back from my 2nd home! haha.. but its already been quite a number of days hehe.. sry for not updating.. LOl.. but here i am! Forgive me ah...

Well well... Taiwan as usual, cold weather coz its the post winter season.. yeah but not exactly cold everyday.. coz there are some days which are extremely hot! Why? not that temperatures are soaring like 35 degs or so, but at 27 deg and ZERO humidity... haha.. thats pretty much worse than Singapore's weather... lOlz..

Okie.. ATEC has came and went... out company has gotten overall Recon 1! Its like Grade A... YEah so not baD... but the battalion as a whole did ok... not pretty sure wat the results are anywayz... oH ya.. last friday went Sentosa Sunset Bay play beach vball with my platoon mates! Really fun man... and i got A little bitsy tanner.. haha.. redder at first.. hehe.. well well... i having off till tues! which is tmr.. lol sianz.. but okie la.. looking on the bright side... has been quite a week! Witha quite a number of exciting events happening.. haha BUT i shan't go into details.. Its personal. hEhe..

Great.. in May, might be sent to Thailand to train... haha.. dunno whether i will get to go.. coz may have an Airborne Jump (parachute jump) there and can get their wing!! hHe...

Oh yah! Forget to say... I also did an airborne jump in Taiwan! Quite fun wor... coz the jump zone is actually a civilian area! So when we jumped, we could see cars below us, nearby villagers coming out and watching us jump out from the planes and land as spectators.. so damn cool! And ya, the ground was soft~ so landing was perfect! hEhe... Din manage to get their Metal airborne badge though.. coz sold out.. but i did manage to get the cloth one... consolation la... at least..

Oh yah.. watched The Pacifier (Movie starring vin Diesel) in taiwan which should open in Singapore soon... not a bad show... definitely suitable to those looking for a comedy with some military aspects in the movie itself? HAha..i rate it 3-half stars outta 5! Not exactly a SUPER good movie.. but definitely better tha most average movies~ so if u have the time, make time for it~!

Waahaha... sianz.. lol.. but happy.. did something quite crazy... but happy.. the memories will stay, now n forever..

Pen off now people.. seeya again soon! Dun forget to Tag!!

Away... to my 2nd home..

2005-03-02T07:14:00.000-08:00

Haha.. going to Taiwan in a few days' time.. yet again.. lol.. for the THIRD time.. well, this is gonna be a whole month there.. and its gonna be shag.. definitely. I'm gonna miss singapore.. more than ever.. Supposed to be excited about travelling... but the thought of the tiredness, the pain, and watever we have to go thru.. puts me off... Dun wanna think about it.. its like gonna be a nightmare which will last for more than 3 weeks..
With not much achance to access my mobile phone and the computer.. life's gonna suck there.

I'm having my leave now till saturday night when i depart frrom singapore after midnight.. but I'm not enjoying myself.. things happened and led me to think about certain things.
Haha.. believe me when i say i have no faith in women. People always say they have no faith in men.. but somehow, dunno whether its just me luck, my fate or heaven playing trricks on me, I experienced the direct opposite.. I'm starrting to get a little disappointed with singaporean gurls, or women? Thanks to my ex-es.. yeah.. i shan't elaborate.. and there are those who stoop so low for a certain motive.. what is the world coming to.. haha.. F***ed up..

Enough of these stuff.. lets say something better.. hehe.. well, I succeeded in my quest of not reading other ppl's blog! Haha.. so far haven seen any.. and wont want to see anymore.. coz sure got stuff that i dun want to see one.. lol..
IPPT Gold!! Yeah.. took my IPPT test (3rd attempt) on tuesday.. the 5 stations were a breeze.. only my 2.4km run having problems meeting commando standards.. lol.. my first attempt of 9m 28secs and 2nd attempt of 9m 45secs weren't good enuff for me to take the Gold award.. and so glad i was given a third attempt.. and also a final attempt at it.. i dunno the official time yet.. but i'm sure i make quite an improvement.. hehe.. and so Gold i got.. meeting the requirements of <9m 15secs to qualify for the IPPT Commando gold.. Bleahz~ and the reward? Cool S$200 added to my salary for a month~ wOohoOo~! not forgetting an extra badge to put on my uniform!! Haha.. but sadly ah.. this happy moments hor.. only myself to know.. dun have another half to be able to share this joy with me.. budden.. well.. xi guan le la.. (Got used to it) so doesn't matter.. so believe me when i say there's gonna be NO ONE sending me off at the airport again this time.. lol..

Haiz.. well.. just too bad la.. thats my life.. Life in Mono.

Oh ya.... I will leave for another training not long after i come backa frfom Taiwan... haiz.. sianz.. looks like its gonna be 2 mths away from Singapore.. So sianz.. So people.. free must ask poor keongy out.. or he'll be bored to death... okie...?

Miss you all very much..

Its been a long time..

2005-02-20T09:16:00.000-08:00

Haha.. hello to everyone who STILL reads my blog! Thank you so very much~ well.. if you dun tell me, i actually WONT noe that you ARE still reading my blogs.. coz i think no one will be insane enuff to read my nonsense.. haha~ Nevertheless, here i am again..

Can't remember exactly when i last blogged... like pretty long ago i guess.. well, nothing much really happened.. but alot of things happened.. err... contradiction.. nvm, i mean, not many events, but during each event, quite alot of stuff~ hehe.. BUT i'm not gonna go into details.. you name it, u got it, happy, sad, bitter, sweet.. lol..

FOrgot something din't I? Happy belated Chinese New Year and Valentine's to all! Abit late.. but better than never.. haha.. received quite a number of ang baos this year, but not as many as previous years, cause haven been visiting! (Comeon, i'm always in camp?!) HOWEVER, i actually received more $ in total compared to previous years! Haha.. all this are going into my savings account.. hehe.. *Untouchable account, to be used for other purposes in the future...* hehe.. big plansa for a small guy? Haha.. not really.. I'm already 21 this year.. gotta start somehow...?

Valentine's! Feb 14 remains a very dreaded day for the 20th year running? Lol.. but okie la this year, got to book out in the evening and went to ahave dinner with 2 of my friends in Orchard.. not bad~~ dinner was pretty good! Cafe cartel.. haha.. but i'm no rich kid.. only eat there occasionally..

Hmmm.. CNY passed, Valentine's also passed... well.. its a sign that i'm leaving for taiwan again pretty soon! Argh... another dreaded event... cause this time, it's gonna hurt. ATEC evaluation.. which the results will determine whether my unit will get the Best Combat Unit (BCU) and therefore, get to wear the smart No.1 uniform on National Day Parade in August.. Hopefully we can do well..

Haha.. went East Coast Park today.. rollerblade.. woah, so damn long never skate le lor.. not as good as before le.. but not saying i was good last time la, juz a comparison. Skated the whole afternoon.. woo... quite shiok.. but there not many people this weekend.. maybe coz of the darka clouds looming over ECP or that everyone has flocked to Sunset Bay? Maybe.. Going back to camp soon... so sianz! Lol.. gonna be quite a shag week for me this coming week.. it's gonna be a looooooong week... well well... hope everything goes well... will suffer though.. haha..

Well, wish me luck okie? Thanks to all who are still reading my blog! If u are too, do let me know ya? Tag a little something on the taggy board on the right~ ---->>

Take care everyone.. Miss ya'll

Happily Saddening.

2005-01-22T07:02:00.000-08:00

Lol.. ironic title.. but its something like wat i'm feeling.. haha.. undescribable..

Sianz la.. keep this short.. but not sweet.

Think hor, i'm gonna stop reading ppl's blog and juz concentrate on my own, continue to pour my sorrows though not completely.. wat to do? Read ppl's blog hor, will only make me so envious, and yet somewat create this hole inside me.. so empty.. waiting for never.
HAte it la.. okie. NO more.. now, juz me, myself and keongy's blog.

HahaAHhahaAaAhAHAHa...

Its never always about myself...

Hmmm... SAD.. (Suffer And Die)

2005-01-20T11:39:00.000-08:00

Several days have passed since I reached Taiwan for "training"... but yesterday night my vicious mind made me think about things again.. this time quite serious.. haha..

Anywayz, I was the enemy for a training sergeant course which i have already attended and passed out sucessfully.. therefore, while waiting and after "fighting" them, i had plenty of time to let my mind run free.. and it did..

It was wee hours in the 12am - 4am in the morning.. i watched the moon rise and the moon set.. as clouds slowly scattered and eventually disappeared, bit by bit revealing the wonderful stars that lit up the clear and cloudless sky.. wat a pretty sight it was.. a whole sky full of stars, something like wat u always watch on tv.. plus many more i suppose.. (tried to capture it on my camera but its something which can only be enjoy by being there.. so therefore.. no successful shots) i lay down on my groundsheet, hugging my winter clothing close to keep warm admist the windy and cold night.. watching the spectacular sky.. haha.. i told my friend "fantastic sky!" while doing my star gazing.. well.. i actually told myself "next time got girlfriend, must bring her to this place, spread a groundsheet, lay down side by side, and star gaze together.. how romantic.." lol.. cant believe it but i did thought of it.. and unfortunately thats the same time a strong gust of wind blew.. reminded me of the cold, the dark sky and how lonely and bored i was, down there staring into the sky.. and i realised.. sadly.. my army days has been very plain.. suffering in silence and i am totally not very much aware of it..

its a feeling that struck me hard.. deep.. and made me conscious of my life.. especially during this period of time.. made me recall back my 1 year as a soldier, what i have done and wat i could have done.. i realised.. i have lived this 1 year, or even my whole life so far.. for nothing.

I had no aims, no ambitions, no vision, no target.. nothing to look forward to.. and.. nothing and no one to live for.. I have become a zombie.. in disguise. And these are slowly destroying me bit by bit.. Haiz..

Sometimes i wonder why my life cant be like the clear blue stary sky but the ever clouded one?

The clouds have yet to clear.. and a storm may just be brewing..

Haha.. pouring out my feelings.. at this point in time.

Cold Suffering...

2005-01-17T21:08:00.000-08:00

Wah.. taiwan hor, when gets cold really damn cold.. not something u will EVER experience in Singapore.. nvm..

Super sianz..

Damn bored.. got stuff running thru my mind.. admist the cold weather conditions.. sibei sianz..
dunno wat to think also.. so best is just /ignore it in my head and then DEL. Best.. but hor my brain sure got the stupid "restore" function.. and it comes back to my head again.. hAiz.. somehow these problems can neber get outta my head.. in the short term at least.. while i was almost successful weeks ago? lol.. suan le..

People... i BEG you all hor... got spare cash and got time hor, pls msg poor and bored keongy iin Taiwan... facing disease called absolute boredom... haiz.. see me suffering in the cold must "an wei" me ma.. hahaz.. haiz.. the cold weather is making my mind mad.. i'm spouting nonsense already.. no choice la.. cant think properly... gtg le.. time running out... blog again next time... miss you people.. do miss me hor..

Greetings... from Taiwan!!!

2005-01-14T09:40:00.000-08:00

Hello fellas!! Greeting from Taiwan!

Haha.. surprisingly here got internet access.. can surf net, play lan games and stuff.. all for 10NT or singapore 50cents per half hour! Haha.. quite bored so decided to come and use the com...

Got here on the 13Jan at 7.30am.. man.. damn cold.. took bus to camp quite fast abot an hour i reach le.. temperatures here as low as 10 degrees! No need aircon lor.. here colder than the coldest aircon in SIngapore.. haha.. frezing.. put on the winter clothing still feel the coldness.. at night its so cold that its very uncomfortable to slp.. keep tossing around, coiling myself up so that i can retain some heat to my body... wanted to use 2 blankets lor.. haha so cold.. hmmm so bored also.. miss singapore, miss my friends, miss singapore life.. hah got something to complain.. NO ONE SENT ME OFF AT AIRPORT!! so sad... alone like cuckoo walking around the airport finding something to do while others had someone to accompany them before their flight.. but nvm la.. i noe it a weekday, and my flight is like 2.30am.. lol naturally most ppl need their rest.. oh well..

Few days before my flight, got off, but also at home do nothing but play game.. seldom go out coz no one to go out with... then told myself needa save for this trip, so never buy anything much.. so bored lor.. imagine, play game whole day till 3 + 4am lidat in the morning. den slp till late morning, wkae up play game again.. lol.. oh, its Ragnarok Online by the way.. still newbie..

argh so sianz... so hor, if u ppl free hor, PLS drop me some msges, or even gimme a phone call! Ease my boredom okie? hAIz.. okie la i end here.. update again maybe when i come back from exercise which starts tmr? lol.. but still can call or sms me lehz! coz i will bring my phone along de...

Take care.. miss me hor.. wahaha..

Block Leave 24th - 28th

2004-12-27T12:50:00.000-08:00

Well.. Christmas has came and went..

Think there's not many people. or NOBODY reading this blog of mine already.. haha.. but den anywayz i'll write.

Leave started from 24th and will be ending on the 28th. Seems pretty long ey? Actually not.. Lots of time wasted on I dunno wat... and lots of money spent during christmas buying presents, eating, entertainment etc. Few hundred dollars i suppose.. so much so that my salary has been wiped out of more than 80%. Well, not all were spent on X'mas stuff but on my com too.. spent quite a bit upgrading my com a little, bought more RAM, bluetooth adapter, wireless network system and a new USB 2.0 pci slot. Format my com also.. trying to get the wi-fi to work but den looks like its spoilt and needa get it changed. SO ma fan.. waste time going back down sim lim.. haiz

well, like the same every year, christmas is a time of loneliness for me.. haha.. but this year i can really feel the loneliness man.. so bad.. It was boring. Well, on the eve i went for dinner with some friends, den sat in TCC in cineleisure where i met my camp mate with his friends.. haha.. stayed till 11 plus den i went to meet my former colleagues at their office. Played a lil billiard which i lost some money.. lol.. den played cards where i lost more money.. abit no life i noe but there's no better way to spent it.. A single man has no aims, no directions and no mind to think.

Oh some very strange thing happened.. haha before i went for leave, while i was in camp.. i was actually thinking how bored and lonely i was in camp.. den 1 min later, an sms came, saying something like "wishing me to have a good life, wont be by myself in any situation, there will be someone to listen to my probz and when u're troubled there's always this person there for me" it was in chinese! quite meaningful sent on the 22nd Dec at 11pm.. lol. I still have the msg.. yeah it was from a friend, who WAS a very close friend of mine.. haha long story. Well, pretty amusing but this sms seem to come at the very exact moment. Haha.. oh well..

back to X'mAs..
Well done to keongy.. spent almost the whole of X'mas at HOME! SLEEPING...
Haiz.. okie la, morning woke up le pack my room.. make it a better place to be in..( dun be mistaken, its my revamped room.. not messy, just that i haven shifted some stuff so took up abit of space) well, i can say my room is DONE! ready to welcome any guests.. hehe.. oh yes, u're perfectly welcome here! Afternoon i was so tired.. i went up to my bed.. lied down there.. and next thing i knew.. it was 7.30pm! hAha.. watched dumd and dumber.. not really funny lehz.. den went to my com (oh yah, i shifted my com from my study room t my own room! so nice!! haha) played game.. den friend called, ask me go watch movie.. den i was like thinking "okie lor, since i got nothing to do" midnight show.. still got plenty of time.. watch tv play game and then watched "Pay it forward" on channel 5.. not for long till my friend called.. say they downstairs waiting for me.. haha.. actually i deliberately dun want to drive, ask them pick me up.. hehe save petrol! went to lido.. reach there at 11pm.. but buy tickets for 2.15 show! lol.. oh it was "kung fu" by the way.. so in between, went to geylang eat "you tiao" and stuff den drove down to marina south, play arcade a lil den went back to lido.. watched movie le den went home sleep.. its almost 5am..

Woke up at 11am.. lol.. realised i was late for my bowling tournament which i was supposed to reach at 9.30.. well.. i set 2 alarm clocks.. but none seemed to have woken me up at 0830.. haha.. oh well.. sianz.. my JI friend ask me go watch movie.. i was quite reluctant man.. coz its kung fu again.. but i decided to go anywayz.. since nothing better to do. lol. after movie about evening time he went back home celebrate his mum bday, so there i was again, alone in orchard.. walking up and down before finally deciding to go home play game.. haha.. super no life. Now u can see why i say this xmas lonely la.. Can imagine hor? walking up and down orchard road alone.. lol. been there, done that, too many times before.

and now! on the 27th noon.. here i am... AT HOME again... doing nothin so decide to write something.. well, again since i have nothing better to do.. maybe later see got any place to go.. haha.. oh well.. i'm still on leave.. anyone wanna ask me go somewhere? hAha.. well.. looking forward to the lonely NYE (New Year's Eve) this coming weekend.. Merry belated X'mAs and hAPpy neW yeAr everyone~~

Merry X'Mas Everyone!!

2004-12-25T20:20:00.000-08:00

Haha.. another lonely X'mas..

Course Ending...

2004-12-12T03:07:00.000-08:00

WoOo.. almost 2 weeks in Pasir Laba camp already.. really enjoyed the life there... so so soooooo different from my camp lor.. so relaxed the environment.. have time to do ur own things.. read newspaper.. play basketball and PT at own time.. go out for dinner with friends.. woah.. but all this is gonna end pretty soon.. so sad.. well looking on the bright side, i will be a qualified 84mm commander! haha.. but den we seldom use one la.. so, maybe juz going for the experience and the extra knowledge gained from the course.
Yesterday had live firing the whole day.. morning we started going to the range and all, zeroed the weapons and shot the sub-calibres first, for our shooting test. hehe i got full marks lor, all hit the target! Bleahz. Den we fired live rounds... the impact so big that me squatting a behind the wall beside the gun, when they fire hor, can feel like someone slapping me on my whole body.. pressure was enormous that i think can nose bleed de..
night firing shiok! can see the tracing light of the round as it trravels to the target.. magnificent sight! Book out only like after 10pm lor.. den went home, asked my dad to packet dinner for me and i'm off to meet my friends, Adam Jianda Kevin Kelvin Ben.. Coz Kevin gonna enlist liao so its a guys nights' out to celebrate his last week as a civilian.. lol.. told him many stuff about army.. met them at orchard cineleisure.. they had gone to changi village before that to have supper. Decided to sing karaoke! For me this is like dunno how many weeks i've been there to sing k-box.. lol but yesterday night really cant sing sia.. cant reach the high notes haha.. kena laughed by all of them.. duh.. nvm. after everything was about 5am! haha.. drove kelvin back coz on the way, den headed home straight after that.. reach my estate there le hor, already got ppl getting out to eat breakfast lor.. me juz came home.. lol. Have been leading this life for the past weeks too.. but then oh well, this is life.. live it! hehe.. today spent almost whole day at home except afternoon went to beach road to sew on my airborne wing to my uniform.. coz tmr got the course graduation. Well, quite boring.. returning to unit soon.. wonder how life's gonna be.. wat are the changes.. and so on..
In 1 month's time i'll be off to taiwan! excited but sad at the same time.. coz Taiwan is DAMN fun, but i'll miss singapore for 3 whole weeks.. haiz.. and my my friend who's in Australia studying is coming back! and thats while i'm still in taiwan.. wat the.. oh well.. wish me luck.. got a parachuhte jump this coming week.. pls pray for me that nothing will go wrong that day okie?
Take care all! The usual phrase.. " FEEL FREE TO SMS ME!!!"

Pri Sch Gathering!

2004-12-05T20:24:00.000-08:00

WoOo.. instead of friday night, it was pushed to saturday evening.. haha but before that, touch on my IKEA shopping spree..

Friday evening i book out already.. borrowed my cousin's car, went to orchard about 7 plus close to 8.. woah liaoz.. orchard crowded.. traffic jam, stuck there for quite some time.. went to PS.. wait bloody 45 mins to get a parking lot.. imagine the crowd there.. haha, by the time i went into the shopping center, it was already 9 plus.. and to think i actually wanted to have my dinner in town.. but nvm. Coz meeting my army friends for supper, so "tong" abit. Met them at about11 plus.. quite late hor, but in the meantime i was playing arcade.. nothing better to do la, intended to come PS to shop for room decor and eat dinner, but like so late shops beginning to close, so decided otherwise.. went to eat dinner at the roadstalls opposite orchard point (Last time was carpark one) ordered some nice food.. den come le, i stared at it.. so little.. so expensive.. but wth.. very fast finish everything liaoz.. still hungry, so decided to go 7-11 buy big gulp.. finish drinking le still not full.. lol.. dunno wat happened.. but nvm.. it was about 1am.. oh yeah, during the meal we talk alot of cock.. really.. nonsense topics, everything under the sun.. lol.. quite crazy de.
After that went to cine, see the movie listings, decided on the incredibles at 2.15am.. still early ma,a so buy tix le go upstairs play lan for a while, den go back down to the cinema.. the show quite alright la.. i wont really say fantastic lor.. my friend best la.. watch halfway den slept.. din bother to wake him up.. till the show ended.. lol. 4plus a.m. in the morning.. i drive my car and my friend drive my other friend down to bukit timah to the 24 hour prata eating house.. wait there 30mins still no one come take order.. lol fed up den went straight to the counter self-service. Prata serve le, but cold one.. wth.. nvm, ate le we went back home.. that was 5 plus am liaoz.. went home lie on bed.. ZZZzzzzzzZz.. till 11 plus a.m in the morning..
Almost forgot i supposed to go IKEA shopping.. haha, compensate for PS never shopped. Drive down there alone, que to IKEA carpark damn long.. but not as bad as orchard.. waited 10mins to get into the carpark, instantly got parking lot.. lol.. lucky me. Went straight to second floor... looked thru alot alot of stuff, took photo with my camera phone, taking down dimensions.. carrying a shopping bag, taking watever i wanted to buy.. and that was quite alot.. that i decided there will be at least 1 more trrip down here to IKEA in the near future.. haha.. notice board to pencil holders to shelves to table lamps to light bulbs to batteries lotsa stuff.. by the time i finish it was about 4 plus le.. woOo.. spent 3 plus hours there man.. total bill... almost $90.. woOo.. "xin tong" mya hard earned money.. but i think worth it.. but den think again, still got another trip down and thats for the more expensive stuff... lol die le..
Went home, unpack, shower change le and its time to meet my pri sch friends.. lol.. picked up 3 of my friends in my car and went down to orchard about 4.45pm. reach there JAM AGAIN.. sianz.. but okie la, since i managed to park my car at 5.20 lidat.. quite fast le.. met others, went to starbucks and BK @ wheelock place.. slowly one by one arrived.. we're the earliest lor.. imagine we reach there 5.45, got ppl come as late as 7.30! bloody hell.. but nvm.. eat, talk, take pictures.. evrything! till about 9plus.. den went back to cine.. lol.. this time they wanted to go K-Box, den we went to the lounge there, listen to some bad singers.. lol.. and of coz, some very good singers.. opened a bottle of Absolut Vodka and many jugs of beer.. lol, craziness we all, but i din drink much, drink abit of vodka plus 7-up and thats about it.. no choice, i driving, later get caught jialut.. so party party, take pix sing song, play pool, play card till 3 plus am then we left the place.. bill about $250.. lol.. but shared among us, so each paid about $15 or so lor.. not that bad la.. but to think i pay the same amt yet i din drink.. lol.. nvm. I'm a good guy. Really havoc.. by 4am, left 7 of us left, others left for home already. Quite happy to meet them coz quite long never meet them le though we have yearly gatherings.. the happening grp, which includes me.. lol, decided to head for the 24 hour coffeeshop near our homes to eat supper.. lol, taste awful.. sit there eat, talk, drink tea, talk crap, about our pri sch days and the teachers, talk from 4 plus am to almost 8am in the morning, where traffic started to pick up and ppl coming to eat breakfast de.. watched the stalls one by one open in the morning, den we decided to go home.. haha.. after sending few of my friends back, i reach home at 8.30 lidat.. lol.. sat at the com, fall asleep there instantly, den my mum woke me up ask me go to the room and sleep.. till 12pm.. lol. Laze around at home, touch up abit on my room with the stuff i bought at IKEA, play game, play abit with my baby nephew coz my sis and bro-in-law came over in the afternoon.. haha night time went to cut hair and take passport size photos for my Taiwan trip.. $$$ fly again... die die die.. see my bank account the $ dropping at an alarming rate.. scary.. and now, post dinner time, here still at home writing this blog cum eating my dinner (Instant noodles by the way.. haha) waiting to go back to camp later in the night! Wat a weekend.. quite shiok, long time neber stay out so long le.. ah~ but sianz, think of next weekend, sat night then can book out coz got live firing for my 84mm course.. haiz.. short weekend, den return back to Hendon camp le~~~ sianz.. oh well.. i'm gonna be damn bored la... so i am gonna say this again... free do SMS me... ease Keongy's boredom!! :D

Taiwan = 2nd home?

2004-12-02T21:13:00.000-08:00

Looks like it for the next few months or rather half a year.. will be spending quite alot of time in Taiwan.. Well, having 2 trips there. The first is coming up pretty soon.. in January 2005.. and the next would be March 2005.. Army.. dunno why always must go overseas.. lol, but its only me and a few others.. so "lucky" to be "selected few" to go there.. so is heng or suay? Heng in a way, the RnR down there ah, damn shiok la.. suay is of coz will be out of singapore for 3 weeks on each trip.. well.. maybe God planned this for me, so i can start a new life in Taiwan? wahaha.. no la, this is a joke.. but seriously i am quite looking forward to it.. though honestly i will definitely miss Singapore very very much..
Course 3 days le in Pasir Laba, Jurong.. quite relaxed course i must admit.. everynight i get to go out of camp and like everyday going to jurong point.. lol except today of coz i came back home.. but later going back to camp again.. haha. Sianz la.. Dunno la.. feel there's a change in me.. dunno positive or negative.. dun want to noe also.. wont do me much good.. or worse bad?!
Pri Sch gathering!! Haha.. some old old classmates arranged for a mini gathering la.. gonna happen this friday or rather tmr night.. but not many can make it.. well.. see how lor.. weekend most likely going all out to shop for my room decor.. looks really plain la.. anyone interested to shop with me or give me some ideas to help decor my room feel frree to join me lehz.. :D
So far so good for me.. dunno whats next in my life.. will it be good or bad? Only time will give me an answer.. till den, ciaoz! Take care everyone, miss me okie? and the usuala phrase.. pls feel free to SMS me when free!! I'll be more than happy to entertain u (If i can la..)
*Grinz*

Crazy week..

2004-11-29T03:56:00.000-08:00

Well.. alot alot alot happened.. but i'm not gonna elaborate on that.. firstly, I have been posted to another camp for a period of up to 1 month! My officer has requested me to go for the 84mm RR Commander's Course held in Pasir Laba camp.. which is end of jurong! Imagine from changi to jurong.. one end to the other.. Well, i dunno whether to be happy or sad. It has its pros and cons.. too much to compare le.. din have the mind to think also la..

The whole week, like i've said, was stuck in camp.. not even allowed to go out for nights' off. It was sad, lonely, boring. Reading the same old magazine over and over again, lying in bed and such. but when busy, is super busy.. suffering in there la.. but not exactly so also.. i had alot of time to think.. think thru about alot alot of things. Basically everything under the sun. Which was bad.. cause i think i simply think too much already.. so much that i cant handle wats coming at me.

Today, mon the 29th.. i was out in the civilian world. With a friend, we went out.. then started thinking again.. well basically he wasnt very morally upright.. haha.. why i say that? Well, he had a wonderful girlfriend who'm i've seen and talked to before.. but somehow he just din noe how to treasure her.. he broke off with her recently, and now, we were at orchard, and he's gonna meet another girl. I felt quite disgusted lor.. then mind start to think alot again. Affected me quite alot.. coz i'm quite a sensitive person.. he went to meet someone first, i just continued to play arcade. Then after that, he told me he's gonna meet another girl for dinner.. thats it.. i had enough.. told him i'm going home.. but i went to shop for stuff myself.. bought quite a number of things.. den went home.. very tired.. fell asleep on the bus till the last stop.. sorry to say this but i think some ppl quite bastard at times.. i felt sad for her.. oh well.. i guess this is life.. its never fair.

Went back look at my room.. realised there's alot alot alot alot alot to be done.. so i decided to start and not wait.. bought some deco for the room at PS and at my shopping center nearby, thought quite alot of stuff, but realise again its still very little.. haha. Haiz.. but den hor, whenever i want to start, i would stop. Reason? Simply no mood.. the intention of revamping my room was to impress.. but who? Now i do not noe.. well.. maybe can just impress myself la.. reward myself with a new room.. taking out precious $$ to make the room look nice.. noticed someting else.. when my phone dun ring, it really doesn't ring much the whole day.. haha.. batt still full after 1 whole day.. rare sight.

Well, christmas is coming, and yet again for the dunno how many year running, it will be spent pretty much alone.. maybe with some friends la.. not even sure whether i am able to clear my leave during the xmas and new year season, coz got the course going on.. haiz.. sianz.. so long never write blog le.. dunno wat i'm writing also.

Viewpoint

2004-11-29T03:42:00.000-08:00

Blogger! Nice name to use for an "online open diary" whereby people can actually express their minds, thought and anything that came across the author. Freedom to write anything u want, anything u please. Great concept.. but unfortunately, unlike the good ol' traditional diary which u used to write before u go to bed every night, lock it and kept in a safe place, confidential. Blogger lets other users who comes across your blog site to be able to read ur diary. While using the traditional diary, there's no fear to anything u write, however personal it may be. Well, its only for u and urself to read when u grows old anywayz. Blogger has, well i will say a little bit, failed on this aspect as Singaporean users tend to be less open about what they want to disclose for others to read and comment on. Key or pressing issues may not be expressed properly and genuinely and therefore, can be a little misleading to readers. While the author still has his/her problems unexpressed inside him, the stress level can slowly build up with every entry which is not genuine and can be possibly lethal. If someone was to use this program for life and he/she is a typical conservative personnel, the "stress power" meter builds inside him and can be a ticking time bomb before it all accumulates to a dangerous and likely disastrous levels. So, traditional diaries rules this out to a certain extent but disavantages are that no one else in this living world will noe about what u r thinking, and somehow u always curse and swear that the someone u want him or her to know will never noe it coz its never publicised. And when this program comes, they are not open enuff to do it.. haha dilemma.

Well, this is just my viewpoint on this program, and the problems i actually faced.

Boring Weekend

2004-11-21T05:52:00.000-08:00

Woah.. finally book out on saturday.. came back home juz in time.. IKEA truck juz arrived at my house downstairs when i reached home.. soon they were up, along with my furniture.. they were fast lor.. less than 1 hour they got everything up and assembled! Impressed.. Now my room looks much better.. but still abit messy... damn bored.. this was a weekend which i din really go out and enjoy myself.. simply no mood lehz.. dunno why.
Well, on saturday night around 8+pm, went to bukit panjang superbowl to practice a little for the tournament on sunday, which is this morning. Practice 3 games, den rested.. went to play arcade de-stress coz bowling like shit.. haha,a den about 10plus bowl again.. another 3 games.. not so bad this time rond, but kept yawning thruout the games.. too tired already.. reached home nearly 12, play game wait for sms till i fell asleep on the chair.. lol.. woke up at around 3.30am looked at my watched and den walked to my bedroom and slept.. instant knock out.. woke upagain at 7.30am.. prepare for my tournament le.. supposed to meet my friend at Macs at 8am lol.. was late for like 30 mins, den realised he overslept also.. end up waiting another 10 mins for him.. ate breakfast den took bus to SAFRA Mount Faber.. damn far alor.. take 176 close to an hour den reach there, almost late also.. never been there before, brand new place, very nice also..
Tournament started at about 1030am.. 10 games series wor.. first few games played like shit.. den picked up a little.. show u my scores for the 10 games... 148, 177, 143, 190, 194, 212, 210, 191, 195, 169. Total pinfall was 1829 so avg is 182.9 la.. not exactly good la, but haven been bowling so long le, not bad liaoz.. Finished 7th place amongst 29 other players. Prize was $70 cash la.. but not much also since entry fee was $50.. lol but if i had finished at 6th, qould have sponsorship worth $200 to Junior Classic Tournament.. most professional youth bowling tournament in Singapore.. lol.. but if got i also cant play.. got to take my rifle and chiong lor..
Haiz, next week wont be able to book out.. on standby.. means first to respond to any national crisis or situations. Life n death de.. sounds scary hor..? Sianz lor.. its gonna be damn tiring and stressful.. and perhaps dangerous.. (hopefully nothing happens).
Well.. see you ppl again in 2 weeks time.. free pls sms me hor..

No $$$

2004-11-13T22:58:00.000-08:00

Yesterday too tired + no mood to write.. so here it is today, though still no mood to write.. lol nvm

Ikea was where i went in the morning and Suntec City for the jap buffet in the evening..
Reached Ikea at about 1105, 5 mins later that the time scheduled.. but my sis came later than me lor.. at about 1120 lidat.. haha.. went inside Ikea look round, found wat i was looking for... quite nice wor the concept.. my bro in law told me to get the other one, wooden de, den i was like okie.. went to asee the price tag, eyes open damn big and told him "nono cannot damn ex man this one" It was like about $600 for the bed frame only lor.. craziness.. compared to the $199 which i wanted.. Decided to go for it so asked the counter staff to order it and deliver it to my house.. den after that look for wardrobe.. sat down there, took the Ikea drawing paper, cracking my head on how i want the exterior of te wardrobe n the interior to be like.. think think cannot think then my bro in law gave me some ideas.. not bad, so i wrote down and drew watever i wanted and wat he suggested.. hand over to the staff and again, ask him to arrange delivery.. haiz.. quite ex lor.. but i think i'll like the combi.. i saw the invoice was like "woah.. about $830 le lor.." more than my 1 month salary.. den whole day damn depressed.. Ate lunch at yoshinoya at Great World City.. my sis treat.. heng.. or else even more broke.. then after that was like raining cats n dogs.. sis n bro in law go shopping.. so i take cab back.. haiz another $10 gone.. haha

Spend the afternoon at home playing game and thinking whether to head down to Sentosa.. actually very much wanted to but then it was still raining damn heavily.. so decided not to go le... went off to City hall at about 5 plus.. coz meeting them at 6.. reach there at 6.05.. again 5 mins late.. haha but only 2 of my friends there lor, still got 9 more.. so wait wait den wait till about 6.40 den we go le.. coz we reserved at 7pm.. Reach there le eat non stop.. chiong all the stuff, tempura, fried chicken, black pepper crab, udon mee, chawanmushi, ice-cream, all flavours of sushi, teppanyaki ahha u name it its got all la..all the jap food.. the place is called Kushin-Bo if i din spell wrongly.. but den bloody expensive.. Its $38+ per pax on weekend nights.. yeah.. second time there by the way, coz first time went to try during my half day off.. damn shiok so we adecided toc ome back again.. so here we are.. but then yesterday the stomach like shrink le.. stuff lots of everything inside.. Miso soup damn nice.. haha got green tea ice cream also.. lotsa pastries, sushi i ate.. damn full.. after that left for mambo pool.. stomach feel very wierd.. like riotting inside lidat.. uncomfortable.. dunno wat happened.. maybe eat too much too quick.. haiz dunno la.. play pool till 1 plus in da morning.. den took night rider back.. dunno why lehz.. dun feel happy yesterday.. maybe cause i spent alot of money ba.. cloase to $1k lor.. craziness.. Got news booking in monday night 2300 hours.. damn sianz.. thought tuesday then go in, they brought forward one day.. but nvm la.. at least the next weekend not burnt.. haiya.. dun want talk liaoz.. i'm going out soon.. spend money again... haiz.. sad sad sad sad sad³

Dunno why hor, always feel something lacking in my life.. damn depressed also.. i think i noe la.. its something that i've been wishing for long, but somehow know that i'll never get it.. hAIz Sianz½

Skating + Headache

2004-11-13T01:07:00.000-08:00

Lol, i'm combining 2 entries this time.. forgot to write yesterday's one.. hehe

Thurs, 11 Nov 04
Its a Deepavali holiday! But morning was spent quite unwisely.. woke up at 9 plus.. damn early la considering i slept around 7.. lolz.. afternoon went to geylang bahru there to find another colleague (he drives the truck full of skates), took a pair of skates and went home again before going down to East Coast Park~! It was like raining cats n dogs in my estate lor, there hor, not even a single drop of rain and it was perfectly DRY! En-route i dunno la, coz i was fast asleep on the cab, catching up on sleep a lil..
Reach there.. DAMN CROWDED lor.. long never see ECP so crowded already.. lolz.. watch a few skaters trying to show off at the beginner's cornor.. den decided to put on skates le.. hehe.. went off a little while before me n michael met his gf + family.. observed them a lil.. seems like everything ish okie already, he joined in with the family while i juz tagged behind watching.. a bit out of place la.. after that, the rest of her family stopped skating and left 3 of us.. mike n his gf in front of me holding hands n skate.. me behind with the "Duhz" face.. lol.. wat to do man, i was alone lor.. join them talk also like not very good lor.. so juz lag behind.. haha but glad to see them lidat.. skate down to fort road den saw my boss! Lol.. long never see him.. had a bit of chat before went down to Bedok Jetty.. On the way saw an ex-colleague.. She left the company in 2002, my second year in da company.. looks never change one bit.. lol.. skated chatted den meet up with more of my colleagues which came to join us. Learn some advanced skating skills from the veterans den left for dinner at Taka.. boss halved our bill (thanks boss!) den went to play pool. Lost to boss.. (my black ball went in lor.. damn suay) Stayed at orchard till 12am den realise today no night rider.. damn.. spend money take cab back.. reach home le, never bother to check mail or anything le juz went to bathe n sleep.. (which explains why no entry yesterday) yupz woke up fresh this morning! though still alil tired...

Fri 12 Nov 04
mOrning woke up at 9.. wonderful feeling.. nothing better to do so again play game.. lol.. till bout noon time, got a lunch delivery (Macs wor~ thanks FiFi.. hEhe) Comes with a hello kItTy! Woo.. So nice of her.. so touched.. :D
Afternoon went to the bank to bank in a cheque.. lol me damn sua ku, take the cheque que up at the teller den the teller told me i have to use the cheque deposit.. lol but she was very friendly n kind.. she helped me fill in my account number n stuff came out of her counter and brought me to the cheque deposit box.. explained to me about the process n told me wat time it can be done. Well done n thank you~! (The bank is OCBC by the way, excellent service plus short ques at ATMs.. Choose OCBC!) Come back home, packed up some stuff again dismantle some parts and den done for the day.. dad came back at evening.. got my letter. Guess wat.. its my UOB Visa Mini! haha applied for it some 2 weeks ago de.. quite cute wor.. small small.. but mine is the debit one.. the credit one looks nicer.. but den, still quite nice.. no complains haha..
Night had dinner at home, quite nice wor.. got sting ray.. hehe den after that went to town walk walk n play pool with a friend from Pre-U.. came back by MRT! Woah.. so long never took train le.. but nothing's changed anywayz.. reach home around 1230am.. quite early wor.. but nvm can rest more..
Suddenly got so many ppl ask me to go out on saturday.. firstly, my sis n me plan to go ikea buuy stuff ma, so she msg me say go sat 11am. Den my bowling friend Adam told me to go celebrate his grandma bday at evening time 6pm.. den another sms come ask me to join them for jap buffet at suntec city (went there before shIOk! but quite ex..) also at 6pm.. den finally... my army friend call me go sentosA! lol.. 11am.. wat coincidence.. dunno wat to do also man.. haha thats all for today! Cheers~

Rot n Stone

2004-11-11T03:50:00.000-08:00

Hmmm afternoon was spent at home playing game.. all the way till evening, went out for walk walk den meet michael and went to orchard.. Oh, before that, had a budget meal at coffeeshop opposite my house lor.. bought pancake! Long time never buy le, taste good~ hmmm
Reached orchard quite late lor, almost 8pm already, alighted at far east den see digital camera.. Olympus Mini Digital looks quite cool.. the black one ish nice.. price tagged at $550, dropped le, from its retailing price of $649. Den went over to heeren shops, walked up and down twice without buying anything.. anf finally ended up in cine. Went up to the 9th floor.. the ex-bowling alley still closed.. dunno wats the next development.. played lan at raiders, coz long neber play liaoz so we decided to play a while, den went down to k-pool.. lotsa ppl so had waiting list.. meanwhile went down to arcade.. see see look look den decided to change for tokens.. before i could spend any, k-pool called say got table le.. so went up play.. lost to michael for all games.. first time lost so badly.. lol.. after that went back down to arcade again spent the tokens.. better luck there..
Went to the bus stop.. its about 1145 already.. waited quite a while, den realised that last bus already left.. so waited for NR3.. Reached my estate le, went for supper before i went home..
Couldn't sleep.. super wide awake.. but i do feel tired.. hmmm.. keep staring at my phone also.. din know until michael commented.. waiting for a msg i think.. before i can set my mind at ease..

Juz feel like writing

2004-11-10T13:15:00.000-08:00

Early entry, but will write another one..

Woke up pretty early today.. 8 plus.. started with the usual packing.. no one helping me this time. Rumaged thru last 2 drawers in my room, and my mind started going again. What this drawer contained were some pretty old stuff, from my primary school days onwards. Quite a number of photos and neoprints in it.. Got one taken in sec 1 de.. shocked myself.. Well, this photos quite well reminded of my past during my secondary school days. Missed those days and missed the people.. Found several letters too, dunno why i kept them but i'm glad i did.. Birthday cards, christmas cards from people who cared but now longer in touch, wat a pity..
Got another letter which dated back to my primary 6 days from a friend in my cca but cant remember her face.. lol, wat u expect, lost touch with her ever since i went to secondary school. A good 7 years ago lor..
Used to write letters alot during those days, now email has unfortunately taken over. Creativity lost.. in a way. You'll never know wat writing letters can do.. its a very good expression tool and definitely spurs creativity.
Also found: my sec 1 sch handbook, contained alot of telephone numbers of my friends that time and guess wat? Pager numbers! Pagers were so popular den.. (Oh yah, there were 4 pagers in my drawer, used to be mine.. hehe) Well to all my friends i saw in the photos, namely Marcus, Htike Win, Candy Jie, Rui Ling, Hui Min, Mei Ling, Tze Siang, Xin Hui, Zirong from CTSS, Jin Min, Desmond from ZPS. And to the late Clara of CTSS who passed away peacefully in 2001, u're all remembered.

Dug up quite a number of trophies of my past achievements during school days. Right from Pri 3. Another sad story to tell.. lol.. Peaked in my secondary school days when i won lotsa competitions butalways not that happy. Whereas my rivals who lost were more happy.. Why lehz, quite simple la.. Coz i was very much alone.. There wasn't anyone whom i can actually share my proudest moments.. Only some friends of mine would go celebrate.. Parents not even there lor.. oh well.. it actually stretch right up to now.. most recently my red beret presentation.. only my dad came.. which i am glad he did (thanks dad for taking time off from work). I was standing in the parade square, watching other people's whole family and loved ones coming down to the parade square, sharing wat i think is the proudest moment of my life so far in history.. haha.. nvm..i think i understand my feelings best..

Stopped packing and stuff from about 1045 onwards, no mood la.. since yesterday lidat le.. sad man.. went on to play gunbound and lost terribly.. haha wat a day.. juz eaten lunch.. quite nice.. lol..
should i start packing already...? i think i shud..

Call me a sentimental person, i wont deny..

Thoughts and more thoughts

2004-11-09T23:59:00.000-08:00

Hmmm.. so fast another day ended le.. found out a fault of using blogspot.. its that u cant totally speak out ur heart becoz some things u dun want certain ppl to know.. but at the same time, keeping it inside myself isnt really a wise thing to do either. Dilemna man.. Sucks.. this has become like somewhat "censored" as in that its not totally wat i want to say lor.. hmmm nvm...
Mum was at home today helping me with the packing and stuff.. so nice of her.. finally cleared most of the stuff lor.. but still left 2 cabinets, a shelf and a cupboard to remove.. dunno how am i gonna remove it also.. at first thought ca dismantle de.. but then later clear le a found out that its fixed instead of assembled. haiz..a meaning i have to remove it as a whole, or use an axe to tear it down le.. the latter seems a bad idea.. nvm.. from morning 10am, woke up by an sms.. till afternoon about 3pm den i stop le.. went bathe and down to orchard.
Reached home past midnight.. a little tired but still awright. Leg hurt a little too.. think pull again le lor.. haiz.. when den can recover..
In the night, alot of thoughts rumaged thru my head. Almost about everything lor.. dunno why also.. duh..
oh yah.. went to check my salary today.. stupid mindef short pay me again.. for the 5th month already.. haiz.. thought this month's pay they will give everything den i can go buy all the stuff needed for my room.. but i think have to budget a little le..
Hmmm.. somehow my phone the vibration come back again.. heaven playing tricks on me..
Today doesn't seem me.. not as happy and cheerful as other days.. think tonight hor cannot slp well.. got a feeling.. still got lotsa things running thru my mind.. but i dun want to disclose.. will share this with a good friend who is also my ex-colleague. Think he understands me best at this point in time..
Haiz...

"Girl when you hold me.. How you control me..You bend and you fold me.. Any way you please..It must be easy for you..To love the things that you do.. But just a pastime for you..I could never be
Don't love me for fun girl, let me be the one, girl.. Love me for a reason, let the reason be Love."

Shark Tale!

2004-11-08T23:59:00.000-08:00

hAha.. went tampines mall watched shark tale today.. not exactly a fantastic show.. needs more laughter elements.. hehe den with my colleague bought a gift for my friend in aussie.. bday this coming saturday.. still need to post it via air mail! dunno whether can make it in time haha..
quite a boring day today is.. basically i woke up rather late lor.. about 10 plus when i was supposed to wake up at 7.30! coz room still in a whole mess and alot need to be removed.. haiz dun nid to see, think of it also headache le... i dun have much time left wor.. my leave is running out.. lolz dunno whether can meet my "deadline" or not..
went bowling today wor! but din perform well.. at all.. lolz.. super sub standard lor.. dunno how if i am gonna take part in this coming thursday's tournament.. hmmm die.. din even get a 200 game.. haiz.. think muz practice more le.. well, at least at night quite okie.. do up my room again, successfully cleared my cupboard, or rather one of my cupboards.. ready to be disembled tmr morning! hehe..
Phone giving me probz le.. the vibration is gone.. dunno wat happened to it.. think got ppl drop my phone before.. coz i haven dropped it yet! haiz.. dunno whether shud send it for servicing already notz.. or wait for miracles to happen.. lolz..
my colleague told me he having probz with his gf.. feel sad for him.. thought she's a nice ger coz i know her de.. turn out to be so dif.. dunno what's got into them..
Overall.. quite a happy day la.. esp at night.. hehe..

BORRRRRing weekend...

2004-11-08T01:45:00.000-08:00

Haiz.. Leg almost recovered le.. but dunno why this weekend i din go anywhere lehz... so unsusual of me.. Not that i dun want wor.. but like nowhere to go and no one to go out with lor.. so sianz..told my parents and brother in law that i'm gonna revamp my room.. Approved! My bro in law even help me to choose some of the stuff wor.. My baby nephew can clap his hands le! so cutie pie he is.. hAha.. Hmmm..
Look at my room hor.. feel like vomitting.. i think i made a right choice to revamp this bloody room.. its so... undescribable.. lolz.. Haiz.. I long wanted to revamp le.. but always no time.. Nan de got this long break from army.. hehe.. take the chance.. some say me stupid.. waste my "holidays" but i think its worth it la.. its been my dream to "create" a room how i wanted it to be like, ideal for myself and very presentable to others.. one step closer to realising it already.. but i did my online shopping hor.. found out that i might seriously have cashflow problems resulting from this.. haha i also dunno wat to do...
Dunno why also hor, this period got quite a number of ppl bday also lor.. lol.. die.. no money left.. wahaha
I miss bowling! think i'm gonna bowl tmr.. hEhehe hands itchy le.. maybe catch a movie too? hmm depends..
Someone help me... thinking of all the stuffi have to remove from my room really headache man.. muz try to get this done asap.. otherwise leave ends le no more time todo up the room liaoz!

Oh yah, juz attached the TAG BOARD on the right.. please feel free to "Tag" yeah?

*yAwNz* Sleepy le.. dunno why i always feel my life is so empty de.. so lonely.. aka No Life.

Red Beret!

2004-11-06T05:50:00.000-08:00

*SobZ* after gruelling 10 months of training, tekan, blood, tears, pain... finally i got the red beret yesterday.. which will signify me as an operational commando~ Before the parade ceremony, had to walk the bloody 72km route march up and down east coast park several times for almost 23 hours. Basically i started walking when the sun was over my head, saw the sun set, went thru nightfall, saw the sun rise and back over my head when i finally finished! I almost cried when i walked back into the gates of my camp.. i was limping and trying to endure the numerous blisters formed while walking and like everyone else, struggling to complete it..
Stayed at home thruout today, even though supposed to attend my friend's 21st bday at ECP.. but my leg cant make it le la.. though recovering but cant walk properly.. so bored... so wished someone would ask me out to have some fun.. esp when i am on leave now! haiz...

New Blog!

2004-11-06T05:46:00.000-08:00

Haha... first time using this program.. abit the sua ku ah me..